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aruki
16 March 2009 @ 09:52 am

I finally finished watching 1 Rittoru no Namida last night, while waiting for Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto to be downloaded completely (took me a month, sheesh)... and as expected I think I cried more than a liter.. and until now my eyes are swollen. Geez. It's such a tear-jerker because you get to reflect about your purpose in living. It's not only that, though. Honestly, I can't quite bring myself to make a review out of it just yet because of two reasons: I'm busy orgnizing my files (finally, my laptop can get rid of these annoying virus~) so I can't think straight, and second, I still have to leaf through the whole series and.. well, think of something sensible and readable review. Harhar. I don't make much sense, now do I? I'll post up the review by the end of the week, hopefully. That is if I'm not too busy with cosplay and/or review. Ja ne~

Music: LAST ALLIANCE - Hekireki
Watching: Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto ep.2
Mood: tired

Originally posted on wonderunderground.vox.com

 
 
aruki
08 February 2009 @ 04:28 am

MISSED


I dressed up, fixed my hair, applied make-up.
I walked with head held high though embarrassment was painted on my soul.
I spoke animatedly hoping to wash away the uneasiness that threatens to show.
I acted as though I were a Majesty who was to show up in front of those people and accept the crown.
And you were my King.

I took a shot, squeezed my eyes as I tasted the bitter fluid,
The concoction almost intolerable,
The very tool used to inject courage in my wavering heart.
I clenched my fist and waited for a chance in bated breath.
I waited in bated breath.

But as reality showed its face upon me,
Bared its fangs against the alabaster skin,
Struck down its enemy, the Fantasy,
Everything went to a big blur.
Nothing remained still, nothing stayed lucid.

Perhaps there weren't enough ounce of courage for me to use.
There wasn't enough opportunity to let a simple plan be set into motion.
Perhaps the flashing cameras were a bunch of distractions,
The lenses focusing on the exterior rather than the one Beyond.
And I only wanted one thing----

May I have the second button of your shirt?





-aruki, 020709; 11:59 pm




(A/N: Haha, just thought of this piece in a flash. Something happened last week and well, that inspired me to just put the thought into words. Half of this is based on experience though; half is bluff. Yeah. Pardon the utterly lame wordings--haven't written something in so long, that's why.)

Currently listening: LAST ALLIANCE - Hekireki
Currently watching: Hajime no Ippo ~New Challenger~ ep 5
Currently reading: The Three Musketeers by Alexandre Dumas
Currently feeling: tired.

 
 
aruki
23 November 2008 @ 02:50 am

...according to my friends. Haha! Despite the utterly, impossibly imperfect, full of flaw haori and samue thatI wore yesterday for H3Con: The Amped Edition, I still had fun. Okay,that was blunt. But I can't put my finger on a term that willaccurately describe what I felt yesterday as I walked around the venuewith my friend/P.A. a.k.a. Arakz and her brother Marvs (or Homurataisento most).

But first, let me share what happened before we went to Silvercity for HeroCon.

Lizand I went to Komikon first just to at least have an idea what it lookslike, or how things go in the said event. I didn't expect it to be sojampacked that there was almost no room to roam around! It had been funto see Rikki-san/Ikotron and Lui-san again! Gawd, it's been ages sinceI last saw them and it was just... gah, I can't explain it! That aside,there were these old "senseis" (I guess) who were masters in doingportrait/realism that Liz's eyes and mine were glued to them for like,four--no, maybe five--minutes as they did their jobs. Seeing them dothat makes me want to try it too... but I'm such a sucker for arts, Ithink it's impossible.

Oh, the Culture Crash team were there(along with the legendary [?] Taga-Ilog's bucket which I managed totake picture of, haha!)... and it was just so nostalgic to see the oldcomics there again.

[OOT - reminiscing] I remember the olddays, the first convention I ever attended--C3Con--back in third yearhighschool. Seeing those cosplayers actually inspired me to cosplay,but I was just so poor back then the only thing I could do was toadmire them from a distance. Wahaha... [end reminiscing]

So,after buying Rikki-san's comic and Pasig Issue 16, Liz, me and my Momwere off to Silvercity for HeroCon. Seriously, I could feel my heartpounding so hard against my chest... I could even swear it was climbingup my throat. There was a lump that I can't seem to swallow and it gotdifficult to breathe. We met Arakz, coincidentally, along the sidewalkand dragged her to the washroom where Liz and I changed into ourcostumes. It's thanks to her that I managed to fix everything, havesecond opinion so to speak with regards to my make-up and.. the otherbooster aside from my Mom who cheered me on my cosplay.

The moment I walked out of the washroom, there were crowds of cosplayers getting a bite to eat. A group of Arrancars and Taichouswere dining together it was interesting to watch. When I saw them, thefirst thought that came to mind was, "Ooohh, I belong!" Hehe. Arakz andMarvs were kinda nice to point out that I was the SOLE Urahara Kisukeduring the event... and it somehow made me snicker much. Kidding.Seriously, that had UPLIFTED my spirits and I could feel reiatsuflowing out of my system (but I still need to work on my poses andcostume and expressions)!

I had half a sandwhich as my lunch. Idid not understand why my stomach seemed to not tolerate the remainingpiece, but I gave up the urge to try and finish the rest. Arakz, Marvs,Mikatana and me have only gone a few steps when someone tapped myshoulder and asked for my picture--I was caught off guard andimmediately, my heart raced again. She took a picture of me with herlittle brother and then it was done. Haha! Marvs was..erm.. kind enoughto say, "Dito pa lang meron na ah!" while laughing. Weeeell, I suppose that means I should be ready anytime.

Movingon, there were a lot of people when we went in, and we've only gone afew steps when people started tapping my shoulder or waving in front ofme. There was even this cosplayer who was apparently ecstatic when shesaw me and she exclaimed, "I so like this character!!!"and nearly glomped me. I was unsure though, whether she knew I was afemale, hehe.. But the thing is that it was just so FUN!!!

I was also able to meet Vampire Prince who's just so nice. Pity, I didn't have much chance to talk to him. Gah, next time, I'm gonna take your picture! I love your VK aura~Hahaha!!! I missed Marky as Akazukin Chacha, but I didn't know untilthis morning that he was the Yellow Ranger!

Liz was nowhere tobe seen when we went in, but as we made our way through people, we werefinally able to see her and her cousin, Kimay. We tried different posesand it was only with Liz that I was able to do some un-Urahara (ormaybe some very Urahara-like) poses. Haha, we were just laughing sooooohard after the stunts we did.

(Okay, have you noticed how disorganized this entry is? My head's in the clouds..)

SinceI'm starting to get tired, it's time to end this post. After the tiringyet enjoyable experience yesterday, I feel satisfied. I know I shouldhave been more assertive, so to speak, but then my reiatsu was runningout by the end of the cosplay catwalk and running around here and therejust to take pictures of the cosplayers and hunting for those we wanteda picture of/with.




WARNING: CHEESY QUOTE AHEAD!!

That was yet another unforgettable experience that I will treasure for the rest of my life.

Currently listening: Plastic Tree - Dolly
Currently watching: Junjou Romantica episode 5
Currently reading: Paraluman: Alaala ni Maria Clara
Currently feeling: contented~

 
 
aruki
09 November 2008 @ 02:07 am

I've been listening to Plastic Tree for quite some time now, only stopped to listen to the GazettE during the Orals IntegWeek to the Finals. Anyway, what captivated me to the band was none other than the different kind of music and of course, it's vocalist. I am talking about Arimura Ryutarou. Perhaps I was so engrossed about their music and him, of course, that I thought of cosplaying him, and it must have been the gods' will that I do so during the AME 8th Avenue: Taking the Streets of Harajuku.

I had been thinking of how to start with the costume that I've seen from a fansite. I did have a difficult time gathering materials and envisioning the whole of the costume since the pictures available weren't able to show the full details of the clothes and their style. Half of the design was guesswork and added ideas from this head. It was also that time when I had my three-day make-up duty at the ER so, as had mentioned in my blog, I was three days late from preparing the costume. And so, I crammed.

It's all thanks to my Mom who still went with me to DV just to look for fabric for two of my cosplay plans; who still supported me all the way. My Dad, too. (Seriously, he was all "good luck" and "have fun on your big day" whenever we talked, haha!) THANKS GUYS--YOU ARE THE BEST.

Anyway, the accessories were tricky, as well as the hairstyle. I struggled to look for an appropriate wig, but since I was just too starstruck with the TuxTeam as they discussed the different styles of wigs during Cosplay Mania, I did have a difficult time looking for one. But it was so last minute that I kinda just stuck with this cheap one and styled it on my own only to find it became too short (well, it was short in the first place). I had to do some changes and dropped the idea of buying another wig. Luckily I was able to at least get half of it and managed to make it look fluffier. The accessories, on the other hand, were all handmade and done just two days before the event, which kind of explains the lame quality and.. well, utter imperfection. The brooch-like thing on my collar is crap when looked up close. But gah, people didn't seem to care and I'm fine with that. Haha!

I now go to the really different and overwhelming experience during the event. I was cramming for my costume seven hours prior to AME 8th Avenue, so I had to leave the house at about one in the afternoon. My mom was kind of against me walking out in the streets with that wig and my coat on. But I reasoned out that the wig won't be spiky anymore if I pack it and wear it there. Luckily, it was drizzling when I was about to leave so I had to don the coat. What I didn't do before taking off was applying full make-up. She's afraid people will gawk at me and look at me as if I'm a monster. I suppose what she meant was that I shouldn't try to attract more attention than I did with the "weird" outfit I wore as I went of the house. Well, she's right. I did attract too much attention with the whole suit and my spikey-hair with highlights, thanks. Like I said to LIZ as I texted her, "people here are gaping at me like I'm some lunatic". And I was serious about it, too. No, really, they have this what's-wrong-with-this-person-and-what-in-the-world-is-she-or-he-thinking-walking-in-broad-daylight-with-that look that makes me want to say, "WEEEEEEELL, SORRY, YOU DON'T KNOW WHO I AM AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK--I'M HAPPY WITH IT. IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS, SO JUST SHUT UP" and then pluck their eyes out.

Oops, sorry. For a moment there, I thought I was morbid.

If truth be told, I was nervous enough to actually get a severe anxiety bordering panic attack walking with my full costume on. It was my first time and I didn't know how to act. But once I got the hang of it, it was fine, although I still had that inexplicable tachycardia and palpitations from time to time.

I didn't actually expect people to take pictures of me, but what nearly made my nose bleed from so much exposure was the overwhelming number of people who took my pictures! I was really caught off-guard because I didn't know how to actually act or even pose in front of these people. There were no variations to poses or whatever because I wasn't able to rehearse or something like that due to lack of sleep and incomplete information, but still.... let's just say I still had fun. I was pretty careful not to laugh too much for the fear of ruining my-slash-Ryuutarou's character, so I suppose I looked really really snob. But Liz and her antics made me laugh too much, I can't help it! Haha!

Oh, one thing I can't get over with while Liz and I were scouting for cosplayers to take pictures with was this really out of character gesture I did. We were able to spot the Dark Magician Girl who's actually a guy (Markee's the name, if I'm not mistaken and he's purtyyyyy). He's quite known for being the Akazukin Chacha. So, after we got our pictures taken together from so many people, I thanked him by shaking his hand. And then--I suppose it was adrenaline acting--I kissed him on the cheek without thinking! I was surprised myself and Liz had been really laughing hard about what I did. Seriously, there were like ten or more people around us still taking pictures and then I did that! Oh, the taint on Ryuutarou's name! I must now DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! I didn't catch his reaction, but I assume he's as surprised as I had been.

(Liz had been very kind to share her sentiments about not being able to capture that action.)

Oh, I remember spotting a Ryuk cosplayer who was holding this apple, and I just had to have my picture with him! Funny thing was that, as Liz shared after the tons of people taking shots, some of those people thought I WAS Light. Oh, come on, people--do you think Light would don clothes as I did and have that weird make-up on? Seriously, you should have your eyes checked...

And one other thing that made me real happy aside from people showing their appreciation on my costume and character (despite the nagging thought that they DON'T have ANY idea as to whom I'm cosplaying as) through taking pictures of me, was that I was able to have--FINALLY--a picture with Kat-san! And Charmie-san! And Isa-san! And Tracy-san! Wee!!! *cartwheels* Liz was kind of egging me on inside the booth to take pictures with the rest of the TuxTeam, but I was really burning with shame right then and there! As I said as I finally convinced her to leave, "Gusto ko nang matunaw sa hiyaaaaaaa." and covered my face with the paperbag on my hand. AS COMPENSATION, I WILL FINISH THE GIFT ART ALREADY AND GIVE IT TO THEM NEXT CON! I'M GONNA DITCH SCHOOL IF I HAVE TO!

RANDOM THOUGHT: TuxTeam's group cosplay is WIN!!!!!! I don't think Ryuutarou would be able to hold back his laughter if he's seen that. It was made of pure WIIIIIIIN!!!!

We were thinking of leaving right after having their pictures taken, but I promised Natsumi-chan I'll watch her catwalk, so we stayed until it was finished. SERIOUSLY NATSUMI-CHAN YOUR GET-UP ROCKS AND I JUST WANT TO GLOMP YOU IF I WEREN'T THERE AS RYUUTAROU

Anyway, all's well that ends well. I had a great time, all thanks to Liz who kept me company throughout the event. Thanks dude! See you at school! Yuki-chan! I wasn't able to get many pictures of the TuxTeam--I have such a loser camera, the battery's about to run out with just wrong move!



I'm gonna wrap this by: I'M COSPLAYING RYUUTAROU, NOT L, NOT LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

Currently listening: Plastic Tree - Ghost
Currently feeling: satisfied

 
 
aruki
06 October 2008 @ 03:13 pm

Well, for the most part of the week, I've been seeing blogs about the Oral Revalida aftermath. But I don't know; I'm just not in the mood to talk abut it. I didn't fail, thank goodness, but I just can't seem to find the right words nor the right swing to start writing about it. In them meantime, I'll burn my <strike>brain</strike> eyes out as I try to finish downloading ELLEGARDEN's whole albums and singles, complete the GazettE's discography (which are leeched from a site of whole J-music galore), and finish the rotting "literary works" in my laptop while waiting.

Oh, upcoming event this October 12: Cosplay Mania @ Megatrade Hall 3, SM Megamall. My sentiments? Well, first off, Yuki-chan isn't sure whether she'd be able to attend the event, which leaves me having second thoughts about costripping again as Miku, this time from the Magnya Carta cover. Yes; it won't be as fun without her.

Secondly, setting that costrip issue aside, I'm broke... and here I am planning to buy a total of four shirts from the TuxTeam. How am I supposed to do that?! Meeh, if I could just bribe them with tons of [melamine-free] chocolates, I'd be more than happy to have even just one tee. But I guess that's impossible.

Third, and last, I guess. Well, it's not exactly a sentiment... more than a trivial concern. I don't know whom I'll be with during that day without Yuki-chan. I mean, Leigh said I could, like, join their group if I'm having solo flights, but the thing is that I'm not sure I fit in. I mean I'm this utterly reserve-type of a person who has trouble building up rapport with other people (makes me wonder how I survived all those bedside moments), especially if they aren't the people I'm too close with. Not that they aren't my friends or something... Ah, gah, I can't explain it!

Kairee-san will be there; and we can finally see each other again after--what--6 months since last Ozine. Haha! Kairee-san!! Joo will receive lotsa Jrock (but seriously, Yuki-chan has more collections than I do.. no kidding)~ I doubt I'll stay long with her and KnK then because they'll be having group cosplay again. So, that leaves me on solo flight again.

Natsumi-chan isn't sure about attending the event, either. She's kinda busy and I suppose there's another anime-unrelated that she's supposed to attend. Aww, that's saaaaad.

As for Ali-chan... well, I heard she and her sister are going as characters from ParaKiss; I just don't know who they'll be, since I haven't watched nor read the manga. Poor me. Anyway.. speaking of her sister, Tammy-chan.. well, I'm so sorrrrryyyyyyy.. I promise I'll finish my task right away! I'm such a slacker, I know... Forgive me!!!! I'll make it up to you, I promise!


Yeah, so there. I guess I'll waste this space in my journal/blog with too much of nonsensical words.





Signing out,
aruki

Currently listening: ELLEGARDEN - Bare Foot
Currently watching: Genshiken ep.. something.
Currently feeling: sleepy and tired

 
 
 
aruki
02 October 2008 @ 04:26 am

Haha, no seriously, they must have been one of my inspirations for the Orals, and one of the reasons why I passed. I was only listening to Stacked Rubbish and Guren the whole time I read my copies of pathophysiology of 68++ diseases. I wasn't able to finish re-reading all of them in one sitting and it was utterly a miracle for me to be able to pass.

My mind's a bit in chaos right now; maybe it's because I'm positively elated at how things transpired. I'm actually lost for words, and the only thing I can say right now is that I'm grateful for your prayers and for everybody's support. And I suppose God comes on the top of the list, haha!

I'll direct you to my Multiply where I posted first: I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY.

Currently listening: the GazettE - Chizuru
Currently feeling: ELATED!!!!!

 
 
aruki
30 September 2008 @ 01:02 pm

TAE NA, KINAKABAHAN NAKO. ANLAPIT NA NG ORALS, HINDI KO ATA KAYA. PAG BUMAGSAK NAMAN AKO, LAMAT SA REPUTASYON KO (kahit na marami-rami na rin akong binagsak na quizzes). BAKA HINDI RIN AKO MAPATAWAD NG MGA MAGULANG KO. BAKA HINDI AKO UMABOT NG SECOND SEM!


ANO BA DAPAT ISIPIN KO? ANO BA DAPAT ANG GAWIN KO? ANO BA DAPAT ANG MARAMDAMAN KO EH POTEK MALAPIT NAKONG MAGKARON NG MYOCARDIAL INFARCTION DAHIL SA SOBRANG KABA, SA SOBRANG STRESS!!

KAILANGAN KO NA NG DIVINE INTERVENTION. KAILANGAN KONG MAGPAKA-POSITIVE. KAILANGAN KONG MANIWALA. TULUNGAN NYO NAMAN AKO O. PLEASE? SALAMAT.


AY NAKO NGA NAMAN O.. DALA NG ORALS, AYAN, ANG GULO NG MGA PINAGSASASABI KO.

Currently listening: the GazettE - Filth in the Beauty (actually, the whole of Stacked Rubbish)
Currently watching: Arashi - Truth [pv] (but no, I'm not their fan)
Currently reading: pathophy of HYPERTENSION!
Currently feeling: fidgety.. and NERVOUS.

 
 
aruki
30 September 2008 @ 12:58 pm

TAE NA, KINAKABAHAN NAKO. ANLAPIT NA NG ORALS, HINDI KO ATA KAYA. PAG BUMAGSAK NAMAN AKO, LAMAT SA REPUTASYON KO (kahit na marami-rami na rin akong binagsak na quizzes). BAKA HINDI RIN AKO MAPATAWAD NG MGA MAGULANG KO. BAKA HINDI AKO UMABOT NG SECOND SEM!


ANO BA DAPAT ISIPIN KO? ANO BA DAPAT ANG GAWIN KO? ANO BA DAPAT ANG MARAMDAMAN KO EH POTEK MALAPIT NAKONG MAGKARON NG MYOCARDIAL INFARCTION DAHIL SA SOBRANG KABA, SA SOBRANG STRESS!!

KAILANGAN KO NA NG DIVINE INTERVENTION. KAILANGAN KONG MAGPAKA-POSITIVE. KAILANGAN KONG MANIWALA. TULUNGAN NYO NAMAN AKO O. PLEASE? SALAMAT.


AY NAKO NGA NAMAN O.. DALA NG ORALS, AYAN, ANG GULO NG MGA PINAGSASASABI KO.

Currently listening: the GazettE - Filth in the Beauty (actually, the whole of Stacked Rubbish)
Currently watching: Arashi - Truth [pv] (but no, I'm not their fan)
Currently reading: pathophy of HYPERTENSION!
Currently feeling: fidgety.. and NERVOUS.

 
 
aruki
22 September 2008 @ 11:10 am

I know I should be studying or reviewing the diseases that are bound to cross my path during the Orals; be serious about the related literature that has been assigned to me ages ago—have some really fruitful, meaningful output rather than just nonsensical crap as though the literatures were just pasted from the sources without apparent coherence and unity; be productive, in general. However, my brain cells seemed to have left the cranium that has been enclosing all the tissues and neurons and they deem impossible to retrieve unless I have some DISTINCT, SERIOUS, RIGID, ADAMANTINE MOTIVATION that will keep me going despite the hopes that can never be acquired. BUT—A FUCKING COUPLE SOON TO MAKE OUT RIGHT BESIDE ME DO NOT MIND PEOPLE TYPING AND DESPERATELY REVIVING THE DEAD BRAIN CELLS THAT HAVE BEEN INFESTING MY MINUTE BRAIN. THEY ARE DESTROYING THE CONCENTRATION THAT I HAVE BEEN UTTERLY TRYING TO BUILD AND PROTECT. PLASTIC TREE HAS BEEN IS MY SOLE SOURCE OF SANITY IN ALL OF THESE!


DISTRACTION==STOP KISSING EACH OTHER RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’LL KILL BOTH OF YOU IF YOU WON’T STOP, I SWEAR IT!

Anyway, enough with the capslock. Now I’m listening to Alice Nine and somehow, I can imagine Shou swinging his hips here and there. Ah, blah. This must be due to utter shame (for my groupmates because I so love slacking off) and insanity—well, being at the brink of it. Gah… I wanna sleep and/or just watch Ergo Proxy now. Can I ditch this research session now, please? It’s my raison d’etre already!!!!

Currently listening: alice nine. - JEWELS
Currently watching: Ergo Proxy ep17
Currently reading: my crappy review of related literature
Currently feeling: crappy, lazyyyyyyy

 
 
aruki
14 September 2008 @ 03:49 pm

I've bought myself a new sketchpad last week and I was just too excited to draw something on it, even with the lack of talent. Haha. The result was pretty lame, although I got some good feedbacks that it was "great". And since I don't have any scanner, I took my digicam and took a picture of it instead. Then I edited it via Photoshop CS3 and Corel. I'm pretty satisfied with the result, considering my lack of talent, but I'll be sure to want some comments and suggestion and constructive criticisms about my first ever digital artwork (I consider it digital, since only the lineart was done the traditional way).

 


THIS BE THE ARTWORK THAT IS AN UTTER FAILCollapse )

Haha. Oh well. Time to sleep. Pardon the utter lame attempt to produce a horrific image.

Currently listening: Plastic Tree - Dolly
Currently reading: Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman
Currently feeling: tired